Dates 54 & 55-Wow. Just Wow.

So, I had dates 54 and 55 with Padre. They were so much fun! Date 54 we made chocolate again, and we both talked talked talked talked all night. Then last night he came over and we just talked talked talked talked talked talked! I am really excited about this guy, but am being super trepidatious. I am thinking with my head AND heart and pray a LOT about our relationship. We have decided that NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS we will remain friends, so I feel like I'm in a win win situation. I know I've liked a lot of guys and gotten "really excited" about a lot of them, but this one's different. I don't know how but it just is. In a good way. And yeah, I'm really excited about this one. :)

Date 53-Bad Teeth & Bad Pickup Lines, What a Combo!

I had drinks with a guy tonight who was very nice, real funny, a little "over the top" (and if you've ever met me and you know when I SAY it's over the top, it's OVAH DA TOP), had a good job, educated, etc. And y'all, this is gonna sound SO FREAKIN' NARCISSISTIC, but his teeth were TOE UP. Like, I couldn't even LOOK at him without noticing the "teeth." And he kept gnashing around talking and all I could think of is, "He will never get to third base with me. Ever." I'm a stickler for a "purdy mouth" and this guy's grill was WHOO! Bless his pea-pickin' heart. Am I a bad person for only noticing that and not looking at his personality? I mean, he was nice and he "paid for stuff", but I just kept looking at his mouth. I know this sounds mean, and I'm not in this to be mean-spirited AT ALL. Should I go out with him again to see if I can overcome the teeth issue? I mean he's in the public eye-you gotta have a nice smile when you're in the public view. I just feel bad even saying it, but feel like y'all can give me some feedback. But then when I told him I taught, he said, "Oooh, I'd sure like for you to tutor me sometime." I think THAT more than the teeth is what had me at hello.

Date 52-Sexual Chocolate

Padre took me to the candy shop he works at every National Singles Awareness Day (Valentine's Day) and we made chocolate. How cool of a "date" is that? I have not had that much fun in forever. Oh my Gosh. I tore through the samples while Padre encouraged me to "try everything!" I even saw how they make a chocolate penis! Haha! We had a blast. We stayed there for 5 hours just making candy and talking talking talking! So much fun, but don't be fooled by my blog heading, nothing sexual went on last night! :)

Date 51-Padre and Getting Axed Via Text Messaging-how awesome

Padre came over last night and for four hours we just talked and talked! What fun! He's a great guy who's had a mudhole stomped on his heart and walked dry just like I have, so we have a lot in common. He's a great friend and if nothing else ever develops from him, I hope we can stay friends.

I also got "my walking papers" from Dig Dug. He said I'm not bothering him but that his head is messed up and he doesn't wanna hurt me or ruin our friendship. Padre was over at the house when I got the text message from him and pretty much told me that was his "out." So, I'm done with him. And while I'm disappointed, I'm not all that DOWN about it. I didn't go "balls to the wall" and start getting my hopes up. I was very cautious and stayed cautious and made sure my heart stayed in a safe place as to not get hurt. I done good, I think. :)

I do want to add that Dig Dug is going through a lot right now, and sometimes the best thing to get over someone is to get on top of someone else. Time heals all wounds. I really do like him as a friend and hope we can remain friends but if not it's OK. Sometimes we all have to PTFO (Press the Fuck On!)

Date 50-HALFWAY DONE!

My 50th date was awesome!!!!!! I went out with "Padre" to go dancing and had a BLAST! Man he's a good dancer and we even celebrated by drinking champagne (he knows about the blog.) We had a great time!

The latest on my NYE Date: As much as I really REELY like him, I think it's time for him to sail. He blows me off a lot when I try to talk to him online, is real lackadaisical on returning text messages (if I can find time out of MY hectic schedule to tell you hello, then I can PROMISE you can do the same for me.) I'm just tired of making him a priority and him only making me an option. Matter of fact, I'm tired of EVERYONE in my life making me their "option" when I put them on the top priority list. Fuck that noise.

Dig Dug: Well, I don't know what's going on with him, but I tell you one thing-I sure just pumped the brakes on us. I called him the other night because we were both on the road traveling to talk and he acted like he didn't want to speak or that he didn't really wanna speak to me. I just got a super weird vibe from him, ya know? So today, I made the executive decision and sent him a text saying that I knew he was going through a hard time right now and if he needed to talk I would listen. I also told him that if he didn't want to date me that was fine but that I hoped we could be friends. No response as of yet. And if he DOESN'T respond, then that's fine too. I'm all about closure with folks.

Date 49-My belly hurts from laughing!

Last night I had another friendly date with the great guy from Saturday night. We just talked and talked and talked and he is super sweet! I think we're going out again tonight to go dancing and hang out again. He's lots of fun and totally not fake at all-what you see is what you get. Has no airs about him.

And Dig Dug is acting weird again-every time I mention us hanging out still, he never responds. So, guess what? I ain't bringing it up. If he wants to see me, he knows where to find me. My running after men shoes have DONE been hung up and put away. I'm ready to be chased!!!

Date 48-Baby, Don't Ya Panic, Cuz I'm Ya Shade Tree Mechanic

I had lunch today with a really nice guy and he's REELLLY sweet, but again no sparks. DAMN! I am meeting really nice, sweet, funny, outgoing, etc. guys, but they are just not cranking my tractor. However, I'm totally done with dating bad boys too. I wonder why it is I'm not attracted to these guys who are x,y,z. I mean, that's what I'm looking for, right?

I will say that all of this dating is giving me a lower-bullshit tolerance. No more are the days where I'm putting up with mess because of whatever reason. Nope, those days are gone. If you "run up, you gone get done up", as my kids at school say. So, if I come out of this "killing field" alive with no man by my side, then it was all worth it to learn not to put up with bullshit, from men or anyone else for that matter.

And my New Year's Eve date? History!